Today has to be one of the hardest days yet. I believe my little girl has stopped growing inside of me. Last week Sophia was measuring 2 weeks behind except for her femurs which were 3 weeks behind. Now Sophie is measuring 3 weeks behind, her femur 4 weeks behind, and her lower leg 5 weeks behind. The only thing measuring on time is her brain. She is missing her radius in her right arm and I believe it's missing in her left arm as well. I'm not even sure if she is able to move her arms as with all of the ultrasounds she kicked and moved but her arms remained still. During the ultrasound the tech took a few 3D pictures and when she took the picture of her left arm and hand it was confirmed that Sophie's hands are severely deformed.

We were able to see her face in 3D and she looks just like Daniel when he was a baby. She has my husbands nose, a combination of our lips, and his forehead. After hearing the results of the ultrasound today we asked the tech to pull the picture of her face back up and we sat there and just cried. Why did this have to happen to our beautiful daughter?

My high risk doctor should have the MRI results by today so at about 4:00 pm CST I'll call and try to find out what exactly is going on. Last week my regular obgyn told us that if she stops growing he'll need to induce. We might have to deliver before even knowing the rest of our amnio results..... If I'm able to get the results from my high risk doctor at 4:00 then I'll call my regular obgyn to find out what he plans on doing. After all, if he plans on inducing I have so much to do before I can allow that to happen. I need to get my maternity pictures taken and I want to have 3D pictures of her. The tech didnt have the capability to print us off pictures today but I could tell that if she was able to, she would have. I'll also have to look for something to put her in when she's born and set up the photographer from www.nilmdts.org to come out. I'll have to try and find the words and the right way to tell my boys so they will know what to expect......

I keep fighting for hope but it's all being taken away piece by piece. I feel numb inside and I want to crawl in a hole someplace and hide. My eyes hurt from crying so much. My head is pounding. My heart is wrapped around my daughter and I'm afraid that if she leaves me, I'll be lost too.